Reorganizing my spiritual life

I've not gone back to my own church yet.

So far, attended Sun 5pm service at boss' church for 2 Sundays. Then signed up for BSF which is a inter-denominational set-up. On Fri, I went to boss' church's bible study session. It's a huge church & gets somewhat impersonal but I'm fine with it. Afterall, I also don't really know that many people in my home-church. Sad hor..

Have been praying for the baptism of the HS but never seem to get it leh (?) Don't understand why. It's been that way for almost 20 years! Didn't really think I need it but now I'm not sure. Perhaps I'm really spiritually dead :(

No, I must not think that way. That's not God's intentions for me. Jesus did not died on the cross in vain. I just need to know His will, do His work & go His way.

Now it's a matter of whether I want to stay in my church or to move to another one. Don't know how to decide.

Daddy please help..